June 5, 2004

  • purge

    empty within walls of torment,
    but the screaming is everywhere.
    you can't pick out a single one,
    and you can't tell how many blare.
    not knowing if it's even near,
    you search in the dark for his hand.
    something to cling to here and now,
    or is it too much to demand?
    aimlessly through what can't be seen,
    it's the arms flailing in still air.
    desperate to find that hand nearby,
    aching to feel what isn't there.
    you can't be overcome with fear,
    but it's so hard when there's no light.
    don't fall victim to what's unknown,
    but there's simply no end in sight.
    please keep trying and don't give up,
    but i can't find my way from here.
    just hold on...for i'm there, right there,
    but there's no way; you're so unclear.
    stop searching...it's already found,
    but the screams are still calling out.
    ignore what's meant to deter you,
    then help purge this blossoming doubt.

Comments (5)

  • whoa. 

    Very, very nice. :)

  • why thank ya... And long time no see!  Good to hear from you.

  • It sounds like something I would have written when I was playing in my rock band. I suffer from the uncertainty of life as well. It scares you even more when it comes down to looking at society in general, and how no one cares about family or having a soul mate.  It always seems like the passion is gone, but there are more people like you and me in this world I assure you. What bugs me is when people tell you to hang in there, and hold onto your hope. When the smoke clears you do your best. You think about who you love, and then you think about who loves you back, and then it just falls apart and you slip into a depression yet again.

    I can tell you that you are an outstanding woman in every way shape and form. But that doesn't mean that the guys that come in and out of your life can see that, and I know how you feel when it boils down to it. I've heard so many women in my past tell me that they wish they would have stayed with me for the exact same lack of vision.  The time will be right when you find a guy that's at the same point in his life that you are.  That's the conclusion that I've come up with from my dating Ms X. Her and I were perfect for each other, but there was one huge difference. We had different goals.  I can't think of any honest God fearing man that wouldn't be honored to wake up next to you everyday and hold you in his arms.

  • hey lindy, thanks for the birthday wish!  i don't know when your bday is since you don't have it posted, but whenever it is, happy (ahead or late) birthday!    for some reason i remember reading something about it being later in the year though.  hmmmmm.

  • D'oh! It sure isn't posted!  Let me fix that.   But anywayz, you're welcome for the wish! And you're right...mine's at the end of the year.  Long way to go.

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