That is, the show Heroes, not heroes in general.  I can't believe I never watched it when it was originally on the air.  It's a shame it only had four seasons.  I actually really enjoyed it.  Not quite LOVED loved it, but I definitely liked it.  A lot.  Despite the glaringly obvious handful of flaws or the whiplash the latter seasons left me with, I was overall entertained.  Simply put, if I have a hard time NOT watching the next episode of something, it succeeded in pulling me in.  That is where Heroes succeeded with me.  As I said, though, it wasn't free of flaws.  

I just need to ramble a little about my thoughts on it, while they're still fresh.

Indeed, Season 1, as I was told by various sources, was the best.  It introduced me to the Heroes in a steady fashion, kept to one story line, and built up to one purpose.  If there's anything I didn't care for, it was how it ended.  I mean, you have a Hero with the ability to absorb everyone else's powers facing against a Villain who stole everyone else's powers, and all they do in the end was punch each other a little?  Talk about a let down.  But it was still extremely fun.  

Season 2 was decent as it came together midway to the end, though the beginning was meh and a little uneventful.  I can't remember anything of much importance going on, but I sure didn't like Hiro being in the past falling in love with a woman. It was distracting.  Thankfully that wasn't the entire season.

Season 3 was just...well, all over the place.  Way too many confusing story lines and inexplicable character motivations. First they're up, then they're down.  And then there's a side to side thrown in there.  It was, as I said, a whiplash kind of season with too many inconsistencies.  Just when you get a handle on one story line, it abruptly comes to a halt, and you got another one shoved down your throat. Level 5 prisoners, Government secrets, Suresh going all Jeff Goldblum a'la The Fly on Maya, who randomly just disappears from the Season altogether, Molly being adopted and loved by Parkman only to disappear later on for no apparent reason at all, Sylar going good and then back to bad for no real reason I can recall, etc, etc, etc. But alas, it doesn't mean that those story lines, no matter how numerous, weren't still interesting to watch and get involved with, at least most of them.  Didn't really care for Mica's cousin story line, though.  Just not interesting and it got Nicki killed off.  Eh...I just wish it didn't feel so...disorganized and messy.  

Season 4 kind of returned to the show's roots a little, focusing on one main story with maybe handful of minor ones scattered in.  But the story was, of course, no comparison to Season 1's story.  Season 4's main story was actually a little lame.  The coolest Hero (who are magically called "specials" in Season 4, which I found kinda...eh...dumb) Peter could only hold on to one power at a time, which was a bummer, as I thought he had the coolest ability during the first two seasons.  I don't understand how Hiro got his powers back; all I can think of is that his contact with baby Matt Parkman didn't just make his powers spark up, but also just...returned them.  Is it safe to assume that if baby Matt had touched Peter his original powers would have returned too? Come to think of it, how did Peter even have power at all in Season 4?  Must have missed it.  I also must have missed the part where Sylar obtained the ability to fly, seeing as how he didn't slice it out of Nathan's head when he killed him.  Speaking of Sylar, and it's not that I don't appreciate him going the Hero route again, but having Peter's ability work successfully in obtaining the Haitian's ability in order to get close enough to Sylar, whose own ability still managed to work in the presence of Peter's Haitian self was a glaringly obvious flaw, and a convenient one at that, to get Peter to beat the crud out of Sylar to hold on to Nathan.  Did they honestly think that wouldn't be noticed?  They made it perfectly clear throughout the entire series that no one's ability, NO ONE'S, will work in the presence of the Haitian, so Peter should have never been able to even absort his ability, and Sylar should never have been able to maintain his shapeshifted form of the woman in the elevator.  How convenient!!

Overall, the show was still pretty awesome and it kept my attention well. I loved seeing the loyalty of the actors on the show, seeing the same faces being the same characters for the show's entire run.  Sometimes you don't get that on shows.  Loved seeing Ray Park again, and seeing him in action no doubt, even if it was rapid-fire.  Didn't care for the college story line with Claire, and her love him, hate him, love him, hate him relationship with her father. Just pick a stance and stay with it, Claire.  I really wish, as a whole, the show focused more on the Heroe's being just that:  Heroes.  Interacting with the real world.  But I guess that can get old and stale after awhile.  I can tell, though, that if the show had gone on beyond Season 4, that may have been the direction they would have taken it.  Too bad.

It's 1 o'clock in the morning, officially January 1st, 2013.  New resolutions being spouted everywhere, new goals being uttered. And yet again, I am a part of that group.  There's nothing wrong with trying for them again, after all.  That's the beauty of a new year.  It's another chance to start over, to not make the same mistakes, and all that jazz.  Along with my typical resolution of losing weight, getting in shape, and eating better, there's the newest determination to eliminate my bills once and for all.  And, just like losing weight, it will involve tremendous discipline on my part.  This means absolutely no more credit cards.  Zippo.  I'm done. I haven't decided if I'll go through the extreme of actually cutting them all up, as I don't think I'm THAT troubled by their addition to my everyday life, but it's still a possibility.  My intention is to pretty much send all my paychecks to the month's bills and to my savings.  If I'm careful and stick with it, I can have most, if not all of my debt wiped out this year alone.  Sure, I'm positive there will still be some random events that will require me to have some spending money, but even that's doable.  If there's something I want to buy, patience will be my ally.  I would just have to limit myself to, say, 100 bucks a month for spending.  To help myself achieve this, I aim to do start dabbling in my other resolution:  Hobbies.

Yes, I want to start drawing again.  I want to reawaken that part of me that's been dormant for too long.  If I manage to awaken it enough to obsess myself with it, it will be the ultimate distraction.  Drawing, sculpting, painting, whatever else.  Those are things that keep me at home.  They pass the time.  But more importantly, they a part of me being reborn again. Something that can spark my creativity, my imagination.  I have sculpted since high school, and I'd love to do it again.  I don't really have an adequate workstation for that, though, which kinda sucks.  But there's other hobbies that I'd love to delve into again, such as video editing.  That, too, involves imagination and creativity.  These hobbies were once enjoyable for me, once my escapism. And I want them to be that way again.  There's no better time for them to be important to me again than now, a time when they can take the place of that part of me that wants to spend money I don't have on things I don't really need. Oh they're things I want alright, but not what I need. I just have this bad problem of wanting things when I want them, instead of just patiently saving money for them.  That's the part that needs to die.  The rush to acquire and own what I am drawn to own. It's almost a sickness.  Not anymore.

This is the year of recovery.  The year of financial recovery, spiritual recovery, and overall recovery.  I'll lose my weight, lose my debt, and lose my stagnancy.  But I will not lose this battle to be or do something more worthwhile.  I won't.  Not anymore.